Here I say Hush !!!

This is as quite as it gets
hush down now, says my heart
countenancing all the thoughts to h_h_h_hush......

 Written for:

Wings

I want to spread my wings,

do a thousand things,

I have never done before...

Written for:

Waiting for you!

 

Waiting for you wondering if you will ever understand just how much of me belongs to you...

Why does god burden me with so much strife??

This has been tormenting me since a long time. Hence I stared looking for answers every where. I found a very captivating story from one of the books  I was reading. It related a brief tale narrated by the Buddhists. Not only me many out there have the same question in their minds still probing for an answer. Isn't?? Hence taught it was worth sharing this story. Well the tale goes this way:

There was a small village. A young boy went to a nearby river to play at the edge of the water. As he was playing, he heard a cry for help….’Oh, please save me, please save me!’

Looking around, he found a crocodile caught in a net; unable to escape, the crocodile cried out pitifully to the boy. The boy, however, was reluctant to save the crocodile, feeling that if he saved it, the crocodile was sure to eat him up. But the crocodile pleaded with him, tears streaming down its face, and said,’ Honestly, I promise u that I won’t devour you. Please save me!’

The boy, convinced of its sincerity, began to cut the net that imprisoned the crocodile. No soon was its head free from the net than the crocodile grabbed the boy’s leg in its jaw.

Now it was the boy’s turn to cry out in tears, ‘Hey, you dirty croc! Is this fair?’ The crocodile responded philosophically, ‘What to do? Such is the way of the world! Such is life!’ and continued to devour the boy.

The boy was not worried about dying. What he could not accept was the total ingratitude of the crocodile and its philosophy.

While his leg was slowly sliding into the jaws of the crocodile, the boy looked at the birds on a nearby tree and asked:

‘Is the crocodile uttering the truth? Is this the way of the world-full of injustice? IS this how life goes where words are not honored?

And the birds replied, ‘We take such care to build safe nests on the top of the trees for protecting our eggs. Yet, snakes come and swallow them. We concur with the crocodile that what it is saying is totally true. There is injustice in the world.’

Then the boy saw a donkey that was grazing on the banks of the lake and repeated his question.

‘While I was young, my master loaded soiled linen on my back and extracted maximum amount of work from me. Now that I am old and feeble, he has abandoned me saying that he cannot feed me. So there is nothing wrong in what the crocodile is saying. Such is the way of the world. There is injustice and unfairness in the world and such is life!’ said the donkey.

The boy, still unable to accept the explanations finally noticed a rabbit and repeated his question. The rabbit said ‘No, no! I cannot accept what the crocodile is saying. It is utter nonsense!’

Hearing this, the crocodile became angry and wanted to argue with the rabbit, even while holding the boy’s leg in its strong jaws. The rabbit protested, saying that as the crocodile’s mouth was choked with the boy’s leg, it was not able to decipher what the crocodile was trying to say. The crocodile laughed heartily at this and said, ‘I am not a fool! IF I let go, the boy would run away!’

‘Now you are really stupid! said the rabbit.’ Have you forgotten how strong your tail is? Even if he runs, you can smash him with just one mighty lash of your tail!’

The crocodile fell for this and releasing the boy, continued its argument. The rabbit screamed to the boy, ‘RUN! RUN! Don’t just stand there!’ and the boy took his heels.

Only when it tried to raise its tail, did the crocodile realize that it was still entangled in the net. As the boy ran away, it glared at the rabbit in a terrible rage.

The rabbit smiled sweetly and quipped, ‘Now do you understand? Such is the way of the world! Such is life!’

In short while, the young boy returned with the villagers and they killed the crocodile. A dog returned with the villagers and they killed the crocodile. A dog that came along spotted the rabbit and started chasing it. They boy screamed at the dog ‘Hey listen! This rabbit saved my life. Do not attack him.’ But alas, before the boy could intervene, the dog had chased and killed the rabbit in a jiffy!

The young boy unable to bear the tragedy cried and said to himself, ‘What the crocodile said was true. Such is the way of the world. Such is life!’

I guess we cannot fully understand many aspects that cover our lives. Unfairness is a part and parcel of life. Such is the way of life. Can we teach ourselves not to be victims of unfairness and confront it with the understanding that the mysteries of life cannot be fully understood?

Such acceptance of unfairness would give us the maturity to live life wisely. Don't you think so??

Friendship in life

The clock ticked 6, when my thoughts said that I had to head back home.

"Well I guess I got to take an off for the day as I have some work back home", I said.
Abruptly there popped up a duffel bag in my friends hand in front of me.

What's in there?
Is it a new pair of jeans for yourself?
Or is it a collection of some strange things?

But, there came no answer from Akin. The bag still popping in front of my eyes.

"Well dear this one is for you", said Akin's voice.

My eyebrows raised in astonishment."For me, Well its not my birthday", I grinned.

He grimaced by saying ,

"It doesn't seem to get any better...
But it doesn't seem to get any worse either.
So, I am thankful for you."

My words were unspoken and the silence was shared. I accepted the token of gift and started off from there.

Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts started lingering in my mind. They were mixed and baffled and dint no, on which thought to land up.I was just a complete mess of thoughts.

Is he not going to talk to me anymore?For what did he thank me?Does he want to part ways?Did I do anything to hurt him?A lot of things just perplexed me.

If that's what he wants,fine. But I know its heartbreaking and really difficult to deal with.But I knew this would happen some day soon.And the hard day had arrived I solaced myself.

I palpated may be he would be better off without me..Had to avoid cliches. Harked back all the retentions which clinged to my heart. Those were the days which brought smile on our faces.Those were the days we were brain-sick. My nerves started crumbling. I felt my dreams dissipating.

The whole evening was just fraught with the thoughts of all the days we relished together.At long last I took my phone and stared dialing his number.

The ringing sound was heard assuring the established connection.

A very pleasing voice said "Hello dear, whats up?? ".

I stuttered, "Just... dono... called... up...".

Damn, what am I supposed to speak, Am I doing the right thing by calling him up? My hands were balled in a fist, my joints ached, The smooth curve on my lips was bewildered to appear.

"Are you there", he suspired.

My emotions were erupting with fear dominating, but dint wanted to whine.

"Hey are you alright", came his voice again from the Electronic equipment.

"Well I just wanted to unfold my thoughts, just listen to me, up your headphones",I screamed which raised from the base of my spine like a snake.

After a moment the silence was broken with my words, "I can't hold it anymore" and there I went on and on spilling the beans.

Sob with fear and restlessness had started . Wanted to be embraced in his arms.

There came not even a single word from the other side which made me stop for a while.

"Are you done dear, Or anything else left out which u wanna say", Akin muttered.

Anger seized abruptly hearing to those words. I wanted him to watch the tears streaming off my face, So that he could understand the way I was feeling.

Tardily the voice started moving across the wire once again to reach me which said "Listen up dear, U have all got me wrong and u are distressing for nothing".
"I am never going to say farewell , that's a promise from my side".
"The smile on your face should never fade away".
"Being your friend I will do anything to see that smile on your face forever".

Just those last words which felt which came from the bottom of his heart made me keep my emotions at check and made me wallow in joy. Tears were turned into twinkles in my eyes.

The thoughts which had made me frantic with anger, frustration and mixed emotions just vanished in a moment. Felt like I was out of an eternity.

Now I taught I could have peaceful sleep, with full of musical beep.

I went out to take a sneak peak at the beautiful moon which made my heart tune to the sparkling of the stars.I felt as if my friendship had survived the test of time.

I learn t that Friendship doesn't ask for more its a very sweet relationship between two blossoming hearts.

A friend is someone you can be alone with and have nothing to do and not be able to think of anything to say and be comfortable in the silence.. ---Sheryl Condie