Angel of smile

A beautiful smile on her lovely lips melted away all the pain. She was loved by everyone for her appealing smile, which they said was therapeutic.People savored her presence, said talking to her taught them a lot, helped them cherish every single moment in their life, changed their life drastically. They said they could never find someone like her and no one could ever take her place. They said she cared so much that she forgot to keep a little for herself. Everyone wished to have her in their lives so that their life became meaningful and soulful. She was admired for everything she was. She was said that she awakened their souls and made them reach for more , she planted a fire in their hearts and brought peace to their minds.

But they failed to realize that her smile was a wall which blocked out everyone to see the real her. She seemed so strong but daily continued to break, she seemed she was always there and had no problems of her own, she always held back tears until she was off the phone. She was a hollow shell filled with emptiness. She longed to feel the calmness. She was not heard behind her smile. She was in darkness like there's no escape. Feelings so heartless, things were just never the same. She always muttered,

Behind my smile is a hurting heart
behind my laugh I’m falling apart
look closely at me & you will see
the girl I am - isn’t really me

Her heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose , no one will ever know.


Anonymous said...

Powerful write. Her gift for others was immeasurable - it is sad she could not see her true worth ... to save herself from such pain and loneliness. Thank you for sharing!

Andy said...

This post really tugged at my heartstrings.
She is able to give so much of herself to brighten everyone else's lives and yet she cannot share her sadness with anyone.
This is all too real for some people.

Beautifully expressed.

Thanks for sharing & taking time to visit my blog.

Anonymous said...

Very moving and powerful. Thank you.

Jingle said...

true, at times, sadness hit upon joy.

well done expression.
Happy Rally.

Marbles in My Pocket said...

So sad that the one others look to to fill them is in truth empty. Wonderful writing!

Anonymous said...

Stunningly written, truly my husband is going through Depression now and he often puts up a smile, such an infectious charming smile you can forget the level of pain he's in and it's so much easier to let yourself believe that smile then face such a heart-breaking reality. Powerful

Anonymous said...

I get this; very powerful. Thank you for writing it.

saya said...

@beccagivens and andy Thanks for your valuable comments..

@rebeccaell and jingle thanks for your visit and liking the post:)

@Marbles in my pocket and pmlevitt I appreciate your visit and comments. Thank you :)

saya said...

@mindlovemisery I hope your husband comes out of the depression very soon and put up a real smile which makes him also happy along with others. Thanks for sharing it :)

Neni said...

That must be not easy to keep smiling while our heart is crying...
I've never been able to do so..

Good job, I could share the emotion... :)