I see tears trying to cross your lovely cheeks,
They are rain upon the blinding dust of earth,
They glow like a pearl trying to water your soul,
If tried to hold, burns with flavors of emotions.
Here I stand waiting for you, to embrace you in my arms,
Allowing your tears to drop on my shoulders,
To kiss away your hurt, to remove your fear,
To show you that this world isn't so cruel after all,
To accompany you in a secret place, the land of tears,
And to hold you close - and never let go...never...let...go...
I caught a glimpse of her;
just in the moment she was trying to settle herself. She was a cute little girl
who was travelling along with me to a place where I was heading for a dream. We
got acquainted of each other. We had a lovely talk over stuff and everything
seemed so uptight. We together enjoyed the whisperings of the ocean, the clickety-clack
of the rails, the hum of the passing country side, the ringing flash of
crossing lights and studying the names of the stations.
Drowsing, heads lolling, voices
amplified and faded in the clickety – clack of the rails as darkness coated the
windows. We also thought of having a slumber. Glassed with cold sleep and
dazzled by the moon, out of the confused hammering dark of the train, I looked
and saw under the moon’s cold sheet and noticed dark small trees that burn
suddenly into flowers more lovely than the white moon. Everything looked so
tranquil. Then we were stopped at a station for some time. I got down the train
to enjoy my feet in the silent lighted yet deserted station. I had no words to
describe the place, the way it looked and the way I felt.
And soon, so soon I
noticed someone getting down the train. It was none other than that small girl.
I called her name but no response. Listen, Can you hear me Laura? I screeched.
Again there was no reciprocation. As I continued to call, she continued to walk
along the more unlighted area. I followed her silently and crossed on to the
other platform, where there was another train ready to depart.
As I stood there I held my
breath, fearfully glancing up at her. My feet became numb, my heart started
pounding.I stood fearful, confused,
drowned, fallen, startled, furious, horror-stricken and many more. All the
emotions urged to take a shape. I had so many questions unanswered, many
broken. I felt all the longings turning away into silent stillness.
I could sense in her the
terror of the shivery sea. Her eyes were fraught with full of resentment and
bitter desires. I could hear the wild cries and a lot more horrid voices. It was
so dark in the night where I could hear some footsteps too. She was surrounded
by a very different aura which took my breath away.The winds blew fiercely and then it blew
slowly.The trees bent uneasy, leaning
to and fro. I was lost within strange fear.
This time again, I stood
there glancing at her while she was settling down on one of the huge wheels of
the ready to move train. And the train speeds on and the darkness grew and
screams rented the foetid air. But she was not affected by its action or the
wheels rotation. No matter how fast the wheel rotated, she was on top of the
wheel unaffected. On the spur of the moment she gazed into my eyes and smiled.
Her smile was sinister. I was in pain and grief and felt my eyes tortured.The train left and there I stood alone excruciated
in the midst of the shuddery night.
I woke up from my dream
with great anguish, perspiring. I was scared to death at this little fright,
but I had to sleep on through the night, until I could see the sun on its peak.
In the midst of our talk, You seemed to glow, like heaven-sent, You seemed so close that, I felt the warmth, that your heart lent. You smiled and winked, I took a breath. I heard your heart, Beat in your chest. Short I was in your warm embrace, I felt a touch so soft and tender. You leaned over and kissed me, With a passion flowing free. I leaned towards you,and closed my eyes. I felt my knees go weak. It made me feel , so reassured. You left me wanting more, And my soul free of pain .
The fear races through my mind, aching my heart for the alarm of it, making my emotions difficult to capture, causing my eyes cry painfully, and making life more miserable to lead.
Fear
Fear
Fear
I ask,
Is there no escape ? no doors to walk out of ? no windows to go through ?
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think Is there a way to cease my fear ???????
A beautiful smile on her lovely lips melted away all the pain. She was loved by everyone for her appealing smile, which they said was therapeutic.People savored her presence, said talking to her taught them a lot, helped them cherish every single moment in their life, changed their life drastically. They said they could never find someone like her and no one could ever take her place. They said she cared so much that she forgot to keep a little for herself. Everyone wished to have her in their lives so that their life became meaningful and soulful. She was admired for everything she was. She was said that she awakened their souls and made them reach for more , she planted a fire in their hearts and brought peace to their minds.
But they failed to realize that her smile was a wall which blocked out everyone to see the real her. She seemed so strong but daily continued to break, she seemed she was always there and had no problems of her own, she always held back tears until she was off the phone. She was a hollow shell filled with emptiness. She longed to feel the calmness. She was not heard behind her smile. She was in darkness like there's no escape. Feelings so heartless, things were just never the same. She always muttered,
Behind my smile is a hurting heart
behind my laugh I’m falling apart
look closely at me & you will see
the girl I am - isn’t really me
Her heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose , no one will ever know.
